Sometimes I look at my children and I pinch myself. Ok, maybe it is all the time. Everyday at least I have a moment where I cannot believe that they are mine. On sunday late afternoon I had this conversation with Keely.
Keely: "mummy why are you having a shower now? Can I open the door?"
me: "Yes sure. Mummy is having a shower because I had a bit of a sad day."
Keely: "is it because you don't want to be alone?"
me: "what do you mean, alone?"
Keely: "to be love mum. You to be with someone."
me: "do you want mummy to be with someone. To have someone to love her, and mum to be in love?"
Keely: (with a cute smile, and walking out the door, after drawing love hearts on the shower door), "yes mum to be love."
I have never had the conversation with my children, or even around my children about where I stand in life with the whole love for me subject. I keep this to myself a lot. Besides sharing it here sometimes to strangers, I keep it very close to my own heart. That is a very personal part of me. To have my daughter see that part of me without any conversation over it, makes me see her personality in a completely new way. I am happy to see that my daughter is growing up with my heart. A heart she clearly wears on her sleeve.
I am happy with myself. That is my love.