I thought today I would be really honest and say I am tired. I am actually exhausted. I have no idea why I feel so rundown. I actually felt this last week too and tried to fight it by not doing much. I was very good at procrastinating the whole week last week and i didn't do any of the things I needed to get done.
I really do believe I am just overworked. I sit in front of this screen any chance I get. I work around Taj's day sleep, Keely being at school and as soon as they are in bed in the evening I am on here. I believe I need to have some time to even just sit and watch a bit of meaningless television. That is actually the reason I created my own "flick friday," as I needed to make a time I would actually sit and not work.
Don't get me wrong I love all of this. I love the blog, I love Little Pinwheel and I love all the other work I do on the side for myself and for others. It is what I do. I love to help other people. But when I yelled at my daughter last night, and my anxiety came bursting back I realised I need to really take some time for me. I need to find out why I am so tired, and why after months do I have anxiety. It came back last week, and I have not figured out the trigger yet.
Today I am being honest and saying last night I was a angry mum. I don't like angry mum. Now I am going to make sure there is time for me to sit and just be. Actually do the simple pleasure of putting my feet up, even if it is for 30 minutes. Take that time to ensure angry mum does not come back.