Friday, November 20, 2009

the next step, the search begins.....

Yesterday I received my original birth certificate, the piece of paper that tells me the names of my birth parents. I have sweaty palms as I type this post, due to the array of emotions I am feeling. I feel excited, scared, lonely, unsure and sad. This is a HUGE thing to see their names right there in black and white. Whoever thought that a name could mean so much, that it could hold all the answers to so many questions?


I know I have a sister to my birth mum, she was only 2 when I met her and she was so cute! She would be 12 or 13 now. I think about her a lot now I have my daughter and wonder if my birth mum still spoke about me with her growing up; does she know about me still? I wonder if I have anymore brothers or sisters? Did my birth father have a family too? To think I could go from having only a sister and a brother to having a whole family.... that is scary.

So am I ready.... where to now? I have their names now I have to move on to the searching part. This is the part that could take years and with Christmas coming I would like nothing more than the best present I could ever receive; to meet them.

8 comments:

  1. Oh, how scary but lovely, I hope you get your Christmas wish xxx

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  2. I really hope you find them! x

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  3. Many blessings for you as you take this journey. I hope you find your family.

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  4. Im adopted too...:) Nice to see we have something else in common!

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  5. Yes, how scary & wonderful too! My mother found me when I was 4 days old & immediately decided she's going to be my mother. I'm lucky.

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  6. Wow, a close mother figure of mine just found her own mother recently. Her mother lives in England now. I see her face and she's excited, confused, bitter, just every emotion ever!

    Proud of you. This is a great step for a beautiful future.

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  7. Wauh - I can't say I know the feeling, but it must be wonderful and very scary at the same time. Cross my fingers

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