Oh Christmas tree, oh christmas tree..... oh here come the jingle bells! There is a part of me that wants to hide in a dark cupboard and cry at the thought of the Christmas season. That part of me is VERY TEENY.
That part of Hayley stood staring at the toys for half an hour, almost vomiting, and wanting to just cry. And ask every other mother strolling up the endless toy aisles, what they were going to buy their little people. That very teeny me bought nothing, and came home with my tail in between my legs. Online shopping rocks. And of course having your own online store is very convenient, and very last minute.
The massive part of Hayley loves this silly season. I love the setting up of the Christmas tree with my little people. This is something I always loved doing with my mum. It was a big thing. We always set it up on the first day in December, and took it down before New Years Eve. Mum had decorations that were from when we were little, and some really cool dodgy ones. I loved the tacky tinsel she had, and the flashing lights. I loved the wreath she hung on the door, and the santa stockings that she bought from the two dollar shop. I loved the full baked Christmas lunch, with a hint of cold seafood. I loved sitting and watching new release movies in between the eating, talking, laughing, and playing with our new toys. I loved watching the cricket with mum on boxing day. I hate cricket. But I loved that time with my mum.
The best part about Christmas is that I get to create all loves for my little people. This year will be a little different, and even though I won't have them the whole day, I will still be able to give them a touch of the Christmas my mum gave me.
Our tree is not real, and it does not have the fun tacky tinsel, or the flashing lights, but it has our things. Our little things. Decorations that the little people have chosen, and a new one is added every year. We may not be having a cooked lunch together this Christmas, but we will be having a special breakfast. We may not watch a new release movie, but we will be walking down to the beach for a morning swim.
Christmas to me is about creating memories, and giving my little people what my mum always gave me; a piece of magic.
There just won't be any magic in the toy aisles for me this Christmas. I am not returning to the mall! But we have artificial snow, and Christmas babushka dolls.