tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85194901053778407852024-03-05T23:46:33.510+11:00Little PinwheelLittle Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.comBlogger866125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-33894424848580891662016-03-17T16:35:00.000+11:002016-03-17T16:35:50.129+11:00a new look, new blog; come and say hello!<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Hello old blog! I now have a <a href="http://www.littlepinwheel.com.au/blog/" target="_blank">new blog</a> and would love for you to come over and check it out. I decided it is time to get back into what I love doing and share the Little Pinwheel shop, our life and the Be Brave journey.</span></div>
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-82128829756769346672015-07-30T12:00:00.000+10:002015-07-30T12:00:13.167+10:00making a difference<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I have been wanting to come here for a while and share some things. It is tough to blog about personal things in my life. Before it used to be really easy and now it seems to be hard. The words are all jumbled and there are way too many of them. Maybe to tell just the outcome is enough. The emotions I will have to sit on for a bit longer.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I recently received a letter from the Minister for Education. This letter has my name on it, the Premier of NSW and the lady who writes the Syllabus for Primary Schools in NSW. Along with these names, is $4 million dollars for our children to be used under Child Protection in the curriculum.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I shared my story here years ago now, I have not stopped talking. Sometimes it is really hard, and I need to go and be in my safe place. I may go into a shell to build strength back up, but I never stop wanting and needing the same outcomes. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Be Brave is something Minti came up with, over a dinner and drinks with me in Melbourne. We were chatting about my story and what I wanted to achieve and do. {By the way these dreams have not gone. I would love more than anything to take my story across the world with my running legs}. I never realised this campaign would become so big for me. I never realised it would push me so much to go to the top of the Government to achieve what I believed was achievable. To me, it is easy. All of it is common sense. We need the education to protect our children. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">They need it, and we all need it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I have recently entered a competition to win an award in 'Making a Difference,' with the AusMumpreneur network. I chose this category for all the things I have been able to achieve with sharing my story through my business. By having the tee shirts designed, and by sharing how I continue to be brave, I have helped to achieve $4 million dollars to help keep our children safe. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I know it should have been easy to share this post, that I should have been shouting from the tree tops that I have achieved this. However sometimes achieving beyond what he made me feel, can seem impossible, and surreal. Each day I get stronger than the day before, and knowing that I am not alone in this journey is more than enough to keep me moving forward. Thank you for your support.</span></div>
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<br />Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-91021319298734379732015-07-01T21:49:00.001+10:002015-07-01T21:49:04.853+10:00in your face school holidays!<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-10887912002804610642015-05-26T17:59:00.001+10:002015-05-26T17:59:14.110+10:00be brave and climb ladders<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">For a few years I have been dreaming of making a difference. Moving toward some huge changes, standing up so tall and strong with my hopes and my dreams to change the world. <i>{Yes, I wish I was a superhero to make this all easier}.</i> I thought I would never see any of this happen in my lifetime, that someone else, (possibly my children), would continue the path I am on. Little did I realise that my voice would travel far enough to the right people and the wheels would turn faster.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">A couple of weeks ago I had a meeting with the Premier's Senior Advisor. Mike Baird has supported me a lot with the Be Brave campaign, and sharing my story in Parliament. He hasn't stopped supporting me. From the moment I left that office, a letter was composed by Mike Baird to the Minister of Education on my behalf. It takes a good 6-8 weeks to hear back. From there I will sit with one of his Advisors to put across my ideas with educating children and teachers about child sexual assault awareness. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">That is it in a nutshell. There is more to it, and it isn't as easy as it sounds. I however do believe that what I have already achieved is huge, and I am really proud that I have turned an awful start in life, to being one that could change lives. </span></div>
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-25440328963050407002015-05-22T22:32:00.001+10:002015-05-22T22:32:58.183+10:00the kissing goals<br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Who am I kidding, I would love more than one day. <i>I would love a lifetime.</i> There's so much to show mum. There are people she's never met that have shown me love and life. I know the simple act of mum having a coffee where I have coffee everyday would bring a whole lot of joy into my little community. She had that way about her.</span><br />
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-67568229480758563032015-04-23T13:50:00.001+10:002015-04-23T13:50:03.238+10:00run like you believe<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Today I ran 10km. That used to be a short run for me, and no doubt in the coming months as my coach starts to push me harder, the runs will become longer. For those 10km, I smiled because I felt free. I was running because I believed in myself, and it was like those people walking and running passed me, could see that belief written all over my face.</span></div>
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-18218261520752434812015-04-14T17:54:00.002+10:002015-04-14T17:54:18.813+10:00being someone awesome beyond the survivor of child sexual assault <div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I am Hayley Blease, an advocate of what you can become if you believe in yourself. Don't give up believing that one day you can be more than what you thought you were. Believe that you can have awesome, and completely deserve awesome, because you too are awesome.</span></div>
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-42578150253255486152015-04-13T14:18:00.001+10:002015-04-13T14:18:22.763+10:00I killed the monster under my bed {in my head}<span style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; text-align: justify;">Life will be full of tough questions from our children. Some may be easier than others to answer and others will give you a lump in your throat, some may even make the saliva in your mouth dry up as you try to answer their questions. Yesterday I thought my mouth would dry up and I would lose my train of thought. I didn't want to stuff this one up. He is only 6, and he is my little guy and I will do anything to protect him and his sister.</span><br />
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-2957709035629963592015-04-07T21:44:00.001+10:002015-04-07T21:44:09.140+10:00my mum held my hand, as I held my daughter's hand<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Today was also huge because my beautiful girl asked if I had a dad, and she asked me where he was. I knew by the look on her face and the way that she asked me, that she knew that he had not been a nice man. I guess her question came up today after we had looked through my mum's album, and there is not one image of me growing up with a father in it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">*I shared mine and Keely's conversation as I feel this is a turning point in my life. Back when mum passed away, Keely was 7 months old. She saved me through the loss of my mum. Today she may just have done the saving again. I needed my groove back in the dreams I have inside my heart. I just need to find my shuffle again, and I will be dancing towards helping create a safe environment for our children.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">In order for me to take this exertion of writing away, I need to be true to myself, and start to believe again. I know a lot of people that used to read the blog no longer read the blog. And that is ok. Mostly people are involved in Instagram and sharing a story in images there. It is a nice place to be, and I enjoy it too. I need to enjoy being here again, sharing our life behind the business, and within the business. I love to write, and to find the true me again, I need to write. Even if it bores the crap out of you!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I am personally trying to understand post traumatic disorder, how it affects me being a survivor. I am trying to understand why when life is pretty cool that I am riddled with nightmares. <i>Not just nightmares.</i> Nightmares that haunt me for days. Along with the nightmares comes the anxiety, and today panic attacks. {PANIC attacks, over leaving the house}! At first I was wondering what was going on, and then it was pretty obvious that the small things were way too much for me. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">And being a survivor sucks arse. Although maybe it is more being the victim sucks. It is said that you should be the survivor and stop being the victim. But how do you stop that when nightmares come, when anxiety hits you in the chest, and when things in your life are affected from fears he planted in you from a very young age. I stopped being the victim the moment I walked away. The thing is the post traumatic side decides it is going to hang around. I have worked so hard on changing the way I think about things, about myself. I have died my hair, I have gone on diets, and I have an overflowing wardrobe. I have done things to try and be in control of things. <i>Of myself.</i></span></div>
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<br />Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-25007792330566212542015-02-24T11:12:00.002+11:002015-02-24T11:12:47.626+11:00a blog party!<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Birthday's are awesome, and this month Little Pinwheel blog has been around for 6 years. I have taken some breaks over this time, and thoroughly enjoyed not getting any older. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I love positiveness. I love being that positive person, but right now, I am in my 3 monthlies. Yes, I have 3 monthlies. One of my best friends pointed it out to me a year or so ago. She is right. I have this spiral that comes and hits me down to rock bottom every 3 months. It is the cycle of believing I am anything more than he made me be. Yes, here we go, another survivor post. Well this one is a little different, as I am deep in the cycle, and I am feeling rather like nothing. I think it is good to get this out. So you and hopefully the right people can see what child sexual assault does to an adult. What it continues to do to the inner child. It isn't about poor me, as it is reality. These are true feelings of deep pain that he inflicted on me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">People say you should pick yourself up, dust off the dirt and keep going. I do that, I do it all the time, and maybe later today I will do just that. I cannot be this person when I pick up my children. I would never allow them to see what he did to me. They are going to have a normal childhood, and one day I can tell myself how awesome I am to achieve that for them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">For now it is a moment I need to be deep in this emotional crap and deal with the anxiety that is ripping my chest apart, and be right in amongst the words in my head that tell me that he is a coward and should have killed me back when I was a child. Instead he slowly kills me when I am in this spiral and I have to continue to pull myself out of it. I don't sleep, always waiting for the boogie man to come and get me. I eventually fall asleep thinking that if he came and killed me, it would stop the pain anyway. Awesome thoughts to have. I should be counting sheep, or dreaming about the beautiful things I could only dream of doing, or falling asleep with a smile on my face with the achievements I have made in my life, and most importantly how I can change all of this. <i>How can I get him?</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Those words my mum promised me as he walked out of the Supreme Court, 'we will get him. One day we will get him.' Sometimes I feel I already have. But right now, I feel I haven't. It all comes down to the fact he walked out to freedom. He is not the only man that walks out. He walked out to hurt another child. Oh the pain inside of how many children he hurt after that freedom the law gave him. They basically told him that he did nothing wrong, that he has a right to be free and hurt other children. This hurts incredibly. And now I have to be the one that keeps fighting. Because no one else will. Everyone just forgets. But me, I won't ever forget. I am the one that lays awake waiting for him. I don't even think it would matter if he was dead. The fears don't go. Maybe it wouldn't matter if he was in jail. I would still be scared?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I am a good person. I can only hope that this voice of mine, and the determination to change things will be enough one day. I have achieved a lot. I have raised $19,460 for Bravehearts, with the goal of $25,000. I have had a private letter from the Royal Commission about my submission, I have sold a great chunk of those Be Brave tee shirts, and continue to do so. <i>My children are still proud when they wear theirs. </i>I know there is a lot more I have achieved with the person I am too. I just wish I could do more to make the changes happen that need to happen. I would also love to confront him, or even go back to court. {Never thought I would ever want to go back or face him}. I will continue to do the crazy things, because people do notice you when you do things out of the ordinary. Like the month of April I will wear red lipstick for sexual assault and domestic violence awareness. It is a worldwide event, you too can join in! I am still training to do more in running/cycling. That dream has never gone. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">New Zealand feels like another home for me. One that is waiting to be explored even more. It is lovely I am able to share this amazing country with my little people. It was the last place my mum visited a month before she passed away. She told me I had to see New Zealand; and that I have with my New Zealand lover, and my daughter by my side.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The flashes of the boogie man are back. He is there in my nightmares, and sadly waking me up. Not only is he grabbing me there, he is also hanging around when I am riding on my bike, sitting here on the computer, and yesterday he sat right in that dark spot of your eye when you blink. He is even hanging around in the daylight too.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I would give anything to see my mum in dreams, my mum in my peripheral vision, and have her sitting on the couch telling me to cycle faster. But no, I have to have that sick prick hanging around when he is not wanted. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Every now and then, I will write posts about my past, about what I deal with now, and how I am coping. I think it is important to share what it is like to be over 20 years on since my last sexual assault from my father. Until laws and the way we talk about child sexual assault change, I won't stop sharing what it is like to be a survivor. Don't get me wrong, it is not all nightmares, and flashbacks of the child within being violated. It is also me being able to reflect on how strong I am, how much I have been able to achieve, and what an awesome life I will give to my children, and the life lessons I can teach them with my personal success to survive.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Because ultimately, I want to change the world, and in order to do that, you need to share your awesome side. No one wants to hear bad things. I guess that is why I will take my story around the world with my achievements to run, to cycle and to swim. However I do it in the near future, will be the reflection of the winning fight to survive from the child within. Sometimes you will hear the heartache, but the next day you might see a post where I am living my life, just the way you are too. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">It has been a long process with Invisalign. Back in 2012 I wrote a blog post about why I wanted to pay for a new smile. Damn bulimia had me when I was younger, and I have sadly suffered on and off throughout adulthood from the result of being sexually assaulted. I can only wish I punished myself in another way. However I guess I am able to fix the damage <i>he</i> had done to my smile and my confidence. The confidence may be ongoing, however soon the effects of bulimia will soon be behind me.</span><br />
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<br />Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-90352987033140179292015-01-23T09:44:00.001+11:002015-01-23T09:44:01.990+11:00no rule books <div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Lately my daughter and son have been splitting some of their time between myself and their dad, out of their normal routine. I am not sure what you do in these circumstances, there are no rule books, and my gut tells me to go with the flow, and not make a big deal out of it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Yesterday Taj wanted to stay with his dad's partner and later see his dad. It was to her face he asked, and straight to mine. Inside I was screaming, 'no, why am I not cool enough to hang out with.' On the outside, and the rationale me, was thinking, that is pretty nice that my son feels comfortable enough around her to spend time alone and be with her on their own,(and with his half baby sister too). I think that is awesome he cares about her, <i>and she cares for him.</i></span></div>
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Little Pinwheelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08056174055525454288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8519490105377840785.post-89266455987075502812015-01-20T12:37:00.001+11:002015-01-20T12:37:24.283+11:00accepting that I am good enough to blog again!<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">With a cup of peppermint tea at my desk, and two children happily playing lego in their room, I have a few minutes to try and do a blog post. It has been a tough choice to blog or not to blog, one that ended up being the choice of a couple of other people over the course of the last week. Two separate moments where I was asked if I still write my blog. It was something I was considering doing more of this year and I guess sometimes you just need to go with your thoughts, good or bad, and roll with it. Writing is a great source of relief and pleasure for me. Plus it seems to be something others like to read. Even if it is just two people; it has helped them.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Maybe I should start by giving a quick recap of what has been happening around here. Firstly, I did clean out my cupboard, and it felt awesome. I don't seem to get changed as much as I used to. However I am starting to try and accept that I am me, and I do a lot to look after myself. I am just maturing. {Such a great word to use once you get closer to 40}! It is also nice to go out and purchase a few new staples for your wardrobe. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">For New Years I made a resolution with my girlfriend, Karen. We always do them. I have used this one before, however I am needing to roll with it again for this year. It is, acceptance. The way I look at the acceptance for the year ahead, is broken down into my past. I don't like to say the past shapes the person I am, although, it truly does. I have my eyes wide open to the way I react to certain things, and I am trying hard to not be so hard on myself; <i>accepting that some of my reactions are a reflection of my past.</i> Yes maybe a little too much for a first blog post back in, and one that might be hard to explain properly in one go. I will do my best!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><i>Am I good enough?</i> That is a question I ask myself quite a bit. I question myself instantly in a lot of everyday conversations. I need to work on why I would be good enough, as apposed to the negative questioning. Accepting that I may react with the negative straight away as a protection mechanism, and working through situations where I have pulled myself apart, and allowing myself to remember the good person I am.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Yes it is all a lot of pulling my negative mind back into gear, and working on the positive energy I pump out for everyday life, and put some of it back into my inner self. It is like I rip layers of myself apart from the inside, not slowly peeling them like onion skin. Once in a moment of despair I am lost in being that little girl and it is incredibly hard to get out of her and back into my adult skin. It may sound weird, but the only place I can do that, if at home, is by laying in my children's room. It is something that grounds me, and allows me to remember that I have a pretty huge purpose. If I am not at home, thankfully I am usually with others, and mostly my lover. He is great at being rationale, and helping me switch the head around enough to come back to being the adult me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Life of a survivor is probably no different to life of someone that has never been abused. We all have our things we need to deal with. This is mine, and I hope by blogging more, eventually writing a book, giving back to the community in awareness, and just being me will allow more to have a voice and help change the world..... yes I know huge, but I believe it can be done, and it will be done. May not be in my lifetime, but it will be in someone else's lifetime.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Welcome back to the Little Pinwheel blog... a life behind the online business, a life of a survivor from child sexual assault, with her two little people, and love of writing about all things from life in general. </span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: x-small;">thank you to the two ladies that gave me my voice back in writing</span> . <span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: x-small;">I chose the images for this post as a reflection of what I just told you. The image with the flowers, is much brighter when you see your purpose in the background, and the image of me on the bed is pretty much a reenactment of where I was on Sunday morning.</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I am struggling to do a lot of things lately, and one of them is blogging. Although this is not my major struggle; I struggle to get dressed in the mornings. I play superman about 4 times on average until I am either happy with what I walk out of the house in, or I have completely ran out of time, and have to roll with it, until I come home to get changed at lunch time! I know nuts, right.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">But it isn't nuts, because as soon as I opened my mouth and spoke to people around me, one my doctor, it was clear to me that this is the norm around my age. I am getting close to 40, the figure has changed a little. (I know I am slim, and athletic, although I still get the bits and pieces). No one around me was talking about this issue, even though a lot of my friends are a little ahead of me in the age game. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">At first, I had posted on instagram, which went to my Facebook page, and I was personally having a 'what the?' reaction. The comments were awesome. My doctor also explained it to me, and my best friend that was recently 40 discussed it with me too. She talked about acceptance and how much she loves her body. She goes to the gym 3 times a week, eats pretty well, but not scared to have a blow out with the food we all love. <i>'Why be scared, I go to the gym 3 times a week!'</i> I love it, because she taught me a lot right there and then over a good cup of coffee, and freshly baked homemade <i>{treat}</i> muffins.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The very next day, Taj dressed me. I asked him to choose my outfit for the day. The day after Keely chose my outfit. From then on, I have chosen and not changed once. It has been 6 days. I feel I am out of that stupid head rut I was in, and to make sure tomorrow I take on a new challenge.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">It is the clear the cupboard out, and start fresh challenge. All clothes I don't really wear, the ones I have had issues with in the past few weeks, will be boxed up and shipped off to one of my best friends. She will have her rummage, make sure I am not being too crazy, and then the remaining clothes will go to a charity.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Big job, however I think it will be worth it. Women need to accept their bodies at all stages in their lives. I wish I loved my body in my 20s, instead of being so hung up about it. I have decided I will love my body at 37 and beyond. We all learn at some stage, and I will pass all this awesome knowledge onto my daughter. She can live a positive body image life early on.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">It is the week that just keeps giving! Who doesn't love some good karma flying back in their face? This week it has been mine, and it is such a reward for sharing my voice in words to the Royal Commission into child sexual assault.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">This morning I received a phone call from a lady Commissioner. She had been passed on my details as the Commissioner who read my letter was very touched by the words I had written. Because my personal story does not fall under the specific terms of reference, a Commissioner is going to personally write back to me in reference to my letter into the Royal Commission. <i>I had made some very good points of reference in my survival of child sexual assault.</i></span><span style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"> The lady was lovely, and told me that they do not single out letters and call people independently, however in this case they wanted to talk to me, and then also put a few things into writing, and post me a letter within a week.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Writing to the Royal Commission was last minute, (the day before submissions closed), however it was not written with only minutes to spare. <i>This was and is my life story. </i>I wish I could share it with you, and one day I hope to. It has parts of my story in reference to what they are asking for in this particular paper. I even outline at the bottom of my personal letter that I may not fall under their criteria, however continue to have a majority of the answers with good points of reference reflecting to my personal story. I did something to warrant a phone call. Even when you don't fall under a 'category' in life, you should never single yourself out to be less the person you are. You never know just how awesome you are until you share your story, and see how much you watch the dominos fall.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I am grateful for finding my voice, for sharing it with people like Tony Abbott, Mike Baird and the awesome Pat Farmer. And I am grateful for having the support of the people close to me, and those I do not even know.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I know I am only one person, but I sure do feel like I have a full force of strength behind me from those who only wish they could share their voice too. </span><span style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I hope that in my lifetime I see the world change more when it comes to the laws surrounding child sexual assault, and that when I continue to work towards my dream of running around the world, I open a lot of people up to the fact they too can talk about child sexual assault, being a survivor or not. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">One deep breath and I was underway. Without thinking I was talking about child sexual assault and sharing my story. A year on since 777 and I was composed, confident and I felt safe. I knew one student in the room, who helped me get today's guest talk at the Tafe. Other than that they were new faces and people that wanted to listen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I was living a dream. They didn't know that I wanted to talk to schools and create awareness in that way. I still cannot believe I have had this one dream and thought about this moment since I was in my late teens. Who thinks of a thing like that whilst facing court and the reality of life that was once a living nightmare. Who thinks about helping others by standing at the front of the classroom?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I sometimes wish I could talk to her. Connect to that scared girl inside and tell her that life will be ok. That it is safe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Today they met a part of that girl, and at the same time they met a woman so brave and courageous to open up a subject that is no longer a secret. I hope they too will be brave and help others like the girl inside me when they graduate.</span></div>
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